113 Danny & Phil, Chandler, AZ, 5-30-10Are you a competitive person? I've always claimed that I hate competitions and what it brings out in people especially, those horrid fathers of the boys in youth baseball and football leagues. But, as the years creep within my being, I can see, much to my surprise...I'm TOTALLY A COMPETITIVE BRAT.
In photo class, I confidently display my pictures knowing I'm a hands down winner :) In dance class, I twirl and whirl about knowing that I can kick some major bootayyyy! In Toastmasters, I prepare my speeches knowing full well my moment will come with 3 speakers and the audience will have to vote for their favorite speech. Yes, I am out for blood.
If you knew me, though, I've done a pretty good job of masking my abilities (another competitive bratty move on my part). Never let them see you sweat. So, when I lose or cannot perform something up to my grossly overrated ego, I call the game with a silent pout. I refuse to attend anymore Yoga classes because as I try to lift my leg higher than anyone else in the class and breathe better, I always walk away in more pain than when I came. I miss the point of seeking within and mastering my own abilities instead comparing myself to others.
Aren't I too old for all this self reflective, work on yourself pep talk? Are you? Find the good in being good, but not the best in besting the rest. :)
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